It’s 3 am. I should be sound asleep, but here I am writing. I’ve been praying for a word to share since Tecia asked me to write this post, but I’ve had nothing. Nada. Zilch. Leave it to the Lord to wait till I am asleep to speak to me. What’s unique about 3 am? My house is beyond quiet. There is not a single distraction to be found. That’s a rarity in my life. “Be still and know that I am God” (Psalm 46:10). Man, do I ever really do that? Sure I have my Bible time (typically while trying to ignore my phone going off), and yes, I spend time in worship, but that’s a far cry from
being still for me. 
What’s on my heart is not about a healthy quiet time.
As I’ve laid here this morning, I’ve contemplated our lesson from last night at youth (I help lead 9th-grade girls). The topic on tap: sin. You can imagine how that went in a room of 15yr old girls (they always keep you on your toes, that’s for sure). As I sat there, the irony was thick in my soul. The truth is, I was once 15 and making ALL the wrong decisions. Yet here I am at 40, trying to help these girls navigate a life they probably feel I have no clue about. As I explained to them that, sure, our society was different back in my day, but one thing I know is that sin has always had the same root issue. Sin is us thinking we know better than God. We think we know better about what we need. We think we know better about what it takes to make things work. It’s the same mode of operation that Satan used in the garden of Eden that got us in this mess in the first place!!
Do you know what else I know? Our God has also always been the same. He, too, has had the same mode of operation since day one: to love us. Since the beginning, He’s been correcting us, disciplining us, and showing us the right way. He doesn’t count us out when we get it wrong. All He wants is for us to recognize when we fall short and leave it at His feet. He doesn’t even expect us to come up with a plan to fix it or change it. That’s His job. Man, there is such relief in that!!!!!
Please let that sink deep in your soul today. You can’t out sin God’s grace. He’s literally seen it all. You won’t shock Him. Nothing softens a parent’s heart like a child who admits what they did wrong, apologizes, and asks for help to do better. It’s His JOY to do that for us. Allow Him to pick up your pieces today.
Lord, I am humbled that you allow me to lead a group of girls I see in so much of myself. The fact that you can take my mistakes to help me relate and understand them proves how amazing you are. You take what we mess up, and you use it for your glory!!! You are such a mighty God we serve. Thank you for making ALL things beautiful—even this hot mess of a daughter of yours.
“Don’t you see, you planned evil against me, but God used those same plans for my good.”
Gen 50:19 (MSG)
“And we know that in all things God works for the good of those who love him, who[a] have been called according to his purpose.”
Romans 8:28 (NIV)
Behki Fuller
CHM Contributor
Podcast guest on Act 2
